Days that make you feel useless!!!

Everyone has them. Everyone doesn’t want them. However the nasty horrible thoughts wander into your brain and take over every thought and action you make.  How can I get myself out of my Wednesday grump??

I have so much housework to be getting on with (my house is a bombsite) and all I have managed to do is put one load of washing into my washing machine and procrastinated on the internet watching holiday Vlogs.

 I know why I’m in a grump I stupidly read my Timehop this morning and remembered how excited I was 2 years ago packing to go on honeymoon the hope, the joy and excitement of the holiday of a lifetime. It’s now been two years and I’m no further along on what I wanted to accomplish and that makes me sad and caught wanting.

 I miss planning and it’s been two years is that weird? I hated planning my wedding I hated the stress and the build-up but, I miss being busy and my mind being preoccupied.

I am also 29 this year the last year of my 20’s and that’s scary. Why is 30 such a big number? In the long game it’s not that old I didn’t care when I hit 25 I was happy to be far away from being a teenager (I hated being a teen does everyone?) however, 30 is scary it’s being a grown up. Will I feel like one? I certainly don’t now. Do I have to dress different being 30? Do I have to talk different? Drink wine instead of cocktails and pints of beer?

I also am thinking have I done enough fun things in my 20’s? What have I done to make my life special? Did I go to university like I wanted to? No. Did I travel the world? Not as much as I wanted.

 I did meet and marry an amazing man. I did go to Glastonbury and have an amazing time. I did go to America and France and Greece. I did learn how to apply bronzer without looking like an Umpa Lumpa (this took longer than it should).

I should look at what I have done instead of what I haven’t however, I’m in a Wednesday grump and I think it’s going to be a big task.

Netflix duvet day or housework???? 

What I did Saturday 18/04/2015

Spring has sprung here in the UK and yesterday we went on a small day trip to the seaside. 

We went to Paignton and its was a mega blustery day and freezing however, even though the weather was freezing we still dipped our toes into the sea. We took two trains to get there and spent a lot of time on the pier arcades winning tickets. Here are just a few of the pics taken.

We want to start taking a lot more day trips in the spring and summer and hope to see a lot more sights in 2015!!! 

Thanks for reading. 

The girl with the constant excuse!!!

It's the 3rd day of disturbed sleep thinking about how fat I feel!! All I have done for the past 3 days is make excuses in my head as to why I have been eating so badly recently. 

It's easter!! I think I'm due on! It's a weekend! No food in the house! I'm too tired!! I'm depressed?? Work is too busy to take a healthy snack!! 

When in truth I can't be bothered with the hard work or mustering the willpower I need to start again. I want to be one of those people who doesn't treat themselves with food but, I love food too much I love cooking it I love sitting at the table to eat it. I love being sat on the sofa in the evening with my hubby with a cup of tea and a packet of biscuits watching Netflix. 

So after this pretty turbulent night sleep worrying   about dying before my parents I weighed myself and after the initial gasp that I had broken the scales I had only but on 1lb and in a way this dosn't help the thoughts going through my head I think I was willing it to be more so I could give myself a kick up the bum to get started again. 

So I think what I need is a special revamp button that can give me back the get up and go I had in February!! Any ideas??